In my last post, I mentioned that my schedule is always a little cattywampus. I do not have a day in and day out routine. I mean, I do try and wake up before anyone else in the house. I do make my french press coffee first thing, empty the dishwasher, make my smoothie, take my supplements and then head upstairs to make the bed, work out and take a shower. But, because I am not sure if I will be in the city or the country, will have an early morning at the office, or can go in a little later, I have taken to watching (and participating with) different exercise peeps on YOUTUBE and working out at home.
More on the exercise videos later….but, one of the experts motivates you throughout your workout by saying things like…”Smile! If you think you are having fun, you will have fun”. And, of course, I smile!
But, the one thing she says that takes my breathe away is: “these 15 minutes WILL end, but will they end with you giving it your best?”*
I must say, that for the past few weeks, give or take, as I was a little under the weather, every time I go to sit down at night, I replay those words in my head “these 15 minutes WILL end” …so, I rethink settling into the sofa and wonder what else I can/should be doing during those 15 minutes…cuz there ain’t no getting them back.
Now, don’t get me wrong, sometimes my thing to get done IS watching an episode of “SUITS” on NETFLIX. But, it got me to thinking about NO REGRETS/GETTING IT DONE/LIVING LIFE. For me, at this point, life is filled with a fair amount of regret. Sadly. Missed opportunities. Relationships gone sour. Bad choices.
I am working on myself. I am. How to live with less regret. How to live a larger life. But, what do I mean by larger? Larger has so many nuances to it. My life now is larger and smaller, all at once. And, conversely, my previous life was also large and small at the same time. I moved 5 years ago and made very conscious decisions to help us come together as a family unit. Instead of going to a class after work, for example, I came home to make dinner so we could all be together and eat a healthy meal together. That, in and of itself both made my life larger and smaller all at the same time. Totally worth it. LOVE what I did. Would not change it. LOVE the dinner connection we all have now. BUT, now what?
Let me not get too heady…let me start with not letting time just slip away. Even if it means not letting an evening just slip away.
I am part farm girl and part city girl. So, Spring, Summer and Fall are crazy times. By the time Fall floats around I am beat, and so ready for some down time. Spring through Fall I am building vegetable gardens, building larger flower beds at the farm AND in town. Mulching at both places. WEEDING. Trying to learn how to be an apiarist. Having chickens….all while still working, cleaning and cooking healthy family dinners.
But Winter….Winter is my nemesis. How to fill my time. My time beyond work. Beyond cleaning and dinners. Now that the house has a lot fewer people living in it. How to feel useful and large? That is my constant question.
So, friends, I ask you….how do you spend your evenings? What do you do after dinner and before bed? How do you fill your weekends? What keeps you busy? Stimulated as an individual? Feeling alive as an adult and as a woman.
I am a list maker. Otherwise, I forget things I want to do. Movies I want to see. Books I want to read. So, I need some help. Help me start my “15 minutes WILL end, but will they end with you giving it your best?” list. Tell me your hobbies. Tell me the activities that keep you occupied and alert and loving life. List the books you are reading. List the music you are into. Fill me up.
Leave your suggestions in the comment box. Maybe we can start something together?